I was sort of hesitating to choose a word for this year. Not sure why...maybe because I come up with too many words then worry I'll choose the "wrong" one. The more I thought about it I realized there's no "right" word and if I focus on more than one, that's okay right? I choose the word "faith" (I think...) for a few reasons, partially related to God and spirituality and partially not. I went to a Catholic school for eight years and learned about memorizing prayers and being afraid of God and that's about it to be honest. I am not a practicing Catholic anymore and we haven't attended church in over a year I think. But I've been feeling the need to have more faith in my life. Faith in God, faith in myself and faith that I can handle the obstacles life throws at me.
When something scary gets thrown in my face, say health issues for instance, I instantly go into catastrophe, life or death mode. I realize that is a frightening way to live. I've been praying more and I find touches of calm when I do. Those touches of calm help me even if it's just for five minutes. When I talk to friends who have strong faith, they tell me just to give my worries to God. I've been doing that more and more and it does help me feel better about scary situations.
So this new year of 2015 I'm going to put my heart into having more faith in God and myself. I may have a serious surgery on the horizon and if I let it it will ruin my everyday life. Instead I keep thinking and saying to myself, "God will help me and I can handle this with faith in him." I'm not saying I'm 100% at ease and not worrying at all, but it's starting to make me feel better and that with faith I can get through most anything.
Are you partaking in choosing a word of the year for 2015? If so, I'd love to hear about it. Hearing what others are focusing on inspires me as well.
